Is this it?

I'm 32, been single for 10 years (not due to lack of trying) , I get ignored by my family/work collegues and I feel naturally alone like I am invisible to these people. I suffer with Anxiety disorder and being alone is without a doubt the worst thing. My experience on this planet being ignored, forgotten and I feel people in my life will only care when I'm dead. I'm not after sympathy or pity and no I'm not suicidal I am just explaining how it is, nothing will change so I don't try and find reasoning behind it. I'm just an odd one out.

I ask myself is this it? Is this the peak of my life? Surely this can't be it. I live in a shitty House shared by strangers and I rent a room, I don't even have my own fucking place. I have no job and I have a foundation degree in Graphic Arts and design but that is useless unless you are a Hipster because no one wants to hire a fat white scruffy guy in 2020.

I don't know what my next move is, I could pursue my Comic book free lance Idea but it's not easy and you need alot of money to cover yourself while doing it. I'm only good at fast food work, I tried office work and it was soul crushing so I don't want to go back to that. At this point I feel like just throwing in the towel, what am I here for? I don't have a family , I don't have a love interest, I don't have a career or savings I just sit in my room eating fast food regretting my past. Honestly if God want's to pull a rabbit out of His arse to help me I would take it but it doesn't seem likely. Praying won't do shit all it does is give me false hope. Reality sucks, my life sucks and I can't be bothered fighting anymore. Sometimes I feel like just going crazy in a supermarket just to get some attention from strangers.

Whatever happens I know that I will never resort to suicide I don't see the point of it but I do question whats the point of living if no matter what you do people will always pull you down.